Wednesday, August 25, 2010
she's here
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Wednesday, August 18, 2010
thoughts on a sunday
*Never got a chance to finish this post, or put it on the blog, so here it is.
- Brian got new running shoes in the mail this week. He opened them when he got home from school and literally spent the first hour looking at them, lacing them. trying them on. At one point I looked over at him and he was just holding one in his arms like a baby, staring at it. Lost in love, I guess.
- McKay learned how to pump on the swings. Oh finally!
- I got my hair done this week. A friend in the ward watched my kids for three hours! I felt so guilty and really missed having Grandma live right by my stylist in Utah.
- I missed Grandmas, yes, but I also missed my old stylist. I sat there nervously in the chair wondering how and if my hair would turn out how I wanted. I know there are bigger problems out there, but finding a new hair stylist is a very unnerving, annoying problem. Glad to report that my hair turned out just how I wanted it. Whew!
- Oh you just know that I have pink eye in both eyes. Yep. I am large, in charge and blood-shot. It's a beautiful combination.
- I miss the mother that I used to be. Does that make sense? I am struggling over feeling guilty about not playing with my kids and not having a lot of patience the last little while. My poor kids. Do they remember how I used to be? Do they notice a difference? I hope it doesn't take too long to find myself again after this girl comes out.
- I keep forgetting to tell you, but the most wonderful thing happened to me! A few weeks ago our landlord emailed us and said she wanted to get the condo "deep cleaned" and asked if it would be alright with us for her to send her cleaning lady here. Um, hello! YES! So on Tuesday there were two ladies here deep cleaning for three hours. That's six hours worth of cleaning my friends! Can you believe my good fortune? I feel so happy.
- Brian just shared with me what Ellery does when I send her in to wake him up on the rare mornings when he gets to sleep in. First of all, she is the most heavy-footed toddler I've ever heard- you can hear her coming down the hall even if you're in a dead sleep. She climbs into bed with him, kisses him on the back, says, "good morning, daddy" and then starts jabbering about the wedding picture that is on his bedside table. Every time she does this same routine. I think it is most precious. I would love for her to wake me up with a kiss on the back! I just get a nose-to-nose greeting with an adamant question, "Momma, please can I have a gink-a-milk?!"
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Sunday, August 15, 2010
thoughts on a sunday
- I'm sitting here in a quiet house while my two boys are at church and Ellery, aka pinkeye, is taking a rest. When we found out that Elle had pinkeye I was the first to jump at the chance to stay home with her. Maybe I didn't even jump. Maybe I leaped. If you know me well, you know that I hate staying home from church. I always prefer to be the one to go if one of us has to stay home with a sick kid. But not today. Today I am happy that I don't have to squeeze into an uncomfortable outfit and sit upright for three hours. And I'm happy that no will have to see me do that. And I'm happy that no one will talk to me about how much longer I have left or how uncomfortable I look. Yes, I'm quite happy right here in my sweats, reading the Ensign and taking my own rest. Thanks pinkeye.
- No really, pinkeye is totally gross! My kids have never had this before. I hate it. I feel extremely upset that just before I am due to have a baby I have this gross, goopey infection floating around my house. Poor little Ellery woke up this morning with one eye glued shut. At first, she thought it was really beautiful that we kept saying she had pinkeye. Now she yells at us, "I don't have a pink eye!" That's when we're trying to put her antibiotic eye drops in. She doesn't like that at all. Thankfully, the eye drops are working and it's already getting better. By tomorrow she shouldn't be contagious anymore.
- Back to the boys who are at church. They looked exactly like twins as I kissed them goodbye. Gray pants, white shirts, black shoes and belts, fuzzy, shaved heads. It was precious. Since I am not there with my big bag to hold coloring books and snacks, McKay packed a little backpack and thinks he is the man for carrying his own backpack to church. He brought enough snacks to feed the primary.
- Last week as we were driving to church I recognized that I had more jewelry on than normal. Necklace, earrings, bracelets and even a ring. It suddenly seemed completely ridiculous to me that we decorate ourselves with jewelry. We're just putting decorations on our bodies. For what? Not that I don't like doing it, but isn't it funny if you really think about it? I shared this with Brian, who agreed with me and made some snarky comment about how women do that kind of thing. But I was quick to point out the non-functional tie decoration hanging from his neck. Nothing snarky after that!
- Portland is experiencing another heat wave. Brian and I laugh at how crazy the news gets when they have a "heat wave". The news coverage is equivalent to an earthquake or something. Anyway, it really has been quite hot, which has kept us inside a lot the last few days. The kids did enjoy it when we filled up a big storage bin as a makeshift pool for them to play in.
- I read a quote this week from Gordon B. Hinckley about parenting:
- This has inspired me to more than ever pray for direction as I raise these babies of mine. Up until now I have felt that they are too young and that we haven't really started that phase yet. This week it seems that everywhere I look I am reminded that this is not the case. It's not too soon to pray for help and inspiration as I interact and guide them. Maybe I'm late to the game on this, but the experiences I've had that have directed me to these thoughts have most definitely caused me to change my view on things. So grateful that no matter what- no matter how insignificant our worries or concerns may seem- we are not alone as we raise our children. This brings me great comfort.
- Brian has his last clinical tomorrow! After that he just has class once a week and then a couple finals to get through. I'm so, so, so happy that this baby is coming during his time off.
- Nesting is in full swing around here. Typically, I have been pretty crazy with what I want to do or get done before I have a baby. This time is different. Maybe because my house is newer and cleaner and we just moved in a year ago. Maybe because I just don't have it in me to be more uptight. I don't know, but my list isn't as overwhelming this time and I'm enjoying that. Still have plenty to do to keep me busy though. I'm working on decorating the baby's room, which has been fun. I'm in the process of making a few things and I just hope they turn out as cute in real life as they are in my head. That doesn't always happen for me.
- I got out all the baby clothes and blankets and washed them. As I was folding a basket full of clothes I think it hit Brian that we are having another baby. It's always funny to witness this happening to him. You know, the moment he realizes that there will be another child in his life. That this is real. This is pretty much spot-on timing for him as well. The last month is when it happens.
- Let me tell you something that I have mixed feelings about. Brian is running the Hood-to-Coast relay after all. Initially he wasn't going to be able to because of a final, but then he got the "go-ahead" from his program director, and so that was that. He was so happy that it worked out. I am happy for him. I know he really wants to do it. It's a really neat opportunity. But. Then. Part of me is feeling mad because now I have all this added pressure to not give birth on those two days. And part of me wonders, "what if he totally misses it?" He could. He probably won't, but he could. Me and this un-named baby girl do not like this kind of pressure. It makes us nervous. And you never know what will happen if we get nervous. And. On top of all that pressure, think of the backlash we might get if we happen to go into labor on that day and he misses the race? Think of it! We will never live it down.
- On a positive note, Brian said, "If I miss it, then you can name the baby whatever you want and I won't say anything." I said, "Um, hello obvious!" Of course I would do that. I wouldn't even bother to ask. Then I would say, "Say hello to your daughter, Cosette." and he would have to.
- Don't worry. I really do love Brian. . .even if he says the name Cosette is equivalent to naming a son Pierre.
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Thursday, August 12, 2010
i spy with my little eye. . .
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Sunday, August 8, 2010
thoughts on a sunday
- We are so excited that my sister Lisa and her family are in town visiting! It's been so fun to have the Allred's here for a couple days before they go to a reunion on the coast and we have plenty planned for the next couple days.
- Last night we went to a drive-in movie with the Allred's. When was the last time you've been to a drive-in movie? I know. We only stayed for the first feature, which was Despicible Me, but we all had fun. The little kids, mine included, were a little bit little for a drive-in, but they still had fun. The movie was cute, I guess. Trevor and Brian liked it, and the kids of course, so maybe it's kind of like a dad/kid movie.
- The kids didn't get in bed last night until after eleven. This never happens. Not living by family, their bedtime routine is as routine as it's ever been. There is rarely a reason to keep them up past bedtime, so we hardly ever do. These next few days will be interesting because I'm not anticipating that we will make bedtime once. In fact, I know we won't.
- I had a doctor's appointment this week. Is it weird that I feel like my doctor likes me better when my kids are with me? I do feel like that. I didn't want to bring them, but forgot to arrange babysitting and didn't feel like calling anyone last minute. So they've come to the last two. McKay is Mr. Chatty with the nurses and doctor and I have to remind him that it's good to be friendly, but that he has to let them talk to mommy about the baby and not try to talk to them himself the whole time. He gets quite inquisitive at the doctor.
- Nothing really to report with the baby. I'm feeling sore and sleeping worse. Brian has said my snoring has reached a new level. Wait. . .have I told you that I'm totally snoring? Yeah, this happens to me when I'm pregnant. I hate it. I can't help it. Brian is so good and doesn't complain, except for yesterday he told me that for the first time it kept him awake during the night. Ahhhh! There's nothing I can even do about this! I would have major issues if Brian snored. I'm glad he still loves me.
- Ellery doesn't eat breakfast. She drinks a big old cup of rice milk and sometimes I can get her to take a bite of a bagel, or munch on some cereal. McKay, on the other hand, sometimes eats three breakfasts. I'll give him something, then he'll ask for more, and then he'll eat Ellery's that she didn't touch.n Breakfast is his most important meal.
- Brian had Friday off. It was nice to have him home, but we didn't do much. I had planned on cleaning the house and so that's what I did. He helped a little, which was nice. I was happy that he got to see the time and energy I put into cleaning because he hasn't been around on cleaning day for a long time. After I was done I requested that he rub lotion on my feet because I just felt like I deserved it.
- After the cleaning was done I did not have the energy in me to wash the car, which was really dirty. We went to a car wash and of course, I was disappointed! Our windshield still had bug guts on it after we were done.
- If you want to imagine me, being eight months pregnant, kneeling on my hands and knees on the hood of my car at nine o'clock at night washing the windshield by hand, then go ahead. It was necessary.
- I substituted McKay's primary class today. I wasn't too impressed with my almost-five year old. Whether he was influenced by his previous late night, or because his cousin was sitting next to him the whole time, or maybe because his mom was his teacher, I don't know. But I do know that we've got to do some talking about reverence and respect.
- My friend Starr had her baby on Thursday and I was able to visit her at the hospital that night. It is the same hospital where I will deliver and I was glad I got to see it before I am a patient there. It's a very busy maternity ward with tons of rooms. It will be a much different experience for me since I am used to a smaller, more intimate hospital experience. It was fun to see a little newborn and to be able to picture myself there with my own.
- Some girls in my ward had another girls night get together. I love these. They are so good for me. I really enjoy our ward and the people we've met here. My mom always says that it takes a year for people to really settle into a ward, and I have to agree. For us it takes a year. And we're coming up on a year in a few weeks and it feels good. We've settled in quite nicely.
- A couple years ago Santa surprised McKay with a space train set. It was a really cool space train set. And really annoying. It fell apart easily, was difficult to assemble correctly and it was quite large. Large enough and annoying enough that we hardly ever had it out. And Santa guessed wrong that year because McKay never really got too into the space train set. So, we decided to sell it. I brought it out one day and set it up to take pictures of it for craigslist and McKay's friend was over and they played with it. He fell in love with it and when his mom found out I was selling it, she offered to buy it. McKay was able to have the money, since it was his toy, and pick out something at the store- anything he wanted. This was so wonderful for him, but took so long. He finally decided on a big transformer and a little transformer.
- Transformers. This is our first dive into an "older boy" toy. So far, so good. We'll see if the excitement lasts.
- It's no secret that we love Taylor Swift around here. We've been listening to hear album in the car- which is like magic when the kids are crying or upset. Ellery has a few favorite songs, but the one I like to hear her request the most is I Be the T-Shirt. If you're familiar with any of her songs you will understand how cute that title interpretation is.
- The other night it was my turn for story and song. As I was singing to the kids, McKay gazed down at me with a twinkle in his eye and said with a sigh, "I wish I was Brian." Why? "Because then I could marry you." Perhaps it was my angelic voice. Yeah, probably that.
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Tuesday, August 3, 2010
skippin' off to boston
. . .and we don't really like baseball.
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four babies all in a row
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Monday, August 2, 2010
thoughts on a sunday
- Brian's touch-rugby team had their big tournament in Portland on Saturday. It was an all day affair- I think they played six or seven games. Me and the kids went down to watch and the kids had a blast playing with the other kids and running around the fields all day. Even after six hours McKay was still not ready to go home. I don't know much about rugby, or actually I guess I should technically be calling it "touch", but it was fun to see them play. It's pretty confusing to watch if you don't know the rules (which I don't) and they are constantly running the whole game. They never stop running until it's over. It's fun to see Brian do something he loves so much.
- I took lots of pictures on Saturday and sadly enough I didn't get any good shots of Brian doing anything interesting on the field. Maybe I was too busy watching him? But believe me, he did lots of interesting stuff on the field. Obviously, New Zealanders love rugby, so this game brings out a lot of kiwis living Portland. Brian has said more than once how much he loves being around kiwis again (he served his mission in NZ) so I'm thinking that is part of the draw for him.
- On the way to church today we were talking about how to behave in our classes. After asking the kids a series of reverence questions, I then added, "Who's going to have fun at church today?" McKay's response: "I am! I love church. I'm a church-man! I'm a church-missionary! I'm a church-prophet!" Ellery then enthusiastically added, "I'm a church-married-princess!"
- Last week at church, our little church-man said the prayer and scripture in primary. His scripture was, "Jesus said, Come Follow Me." He said both on his own and only stumbled a bit when trying to remember which scripture in Luke he had quoted. Brian and I were surprised at how not shy he is. It was also interesting to hear him pray on his own in that setting. He has definitely picked up the phrases that are often heard in primary prayers. He is cute.
- Last week McKay went swimming with one of his friends and his family. It was so sweet of my friend to take him along because McKay loves all her boys (she has six!). On the way home from the pool there was a little road-rage from the car behind them. This man pulled up next to their car, reached down, pulled out a gun and cocked it- all because he felt he'd been cut off. He didn't point it at them, but was clearly sending a dangerous message. We were all so grateful that nothing more happened, but it sure shook us up. McKay actually thought it was kind of exciting, but he didn't see the guy or the gun- thankfully- so I imagine all the nervous energy it brought did seem exciting to him.
- Ellery observed that we (meaning her and I) have hair on our heads and Daddy and McKay don't have hair on their heads. She also is very into informing people, "My brother has a buzz," at random.
- I took the kids outside the other day to play. McKay wanted to play baseball, so I brought along a big blue ball for Ellery to hit, instead of the little softball that McKay uses. Guess who is SO not interested in baseball? She has become such a girly-girl and apparently has aspirations to become a cheerleader and a princess, which is what she told a man we were sitting by at Brian's rugby game.
- I recently bought agave nectar for the purpose of sweetening my smoothies. I love it. That's all.
- So at my last doctor's appointment we discussed the timing of this baby. Dr. said that I should plan on going two weeks early with this one, since that's what I did with the others. If that's the case then I have four weeks to go. If I make it to September then that's great. If I got past my September 9th due date I might die.
- Pretty much I am a big, grumpy lady. I have never felt this way before. Just being in this body makes me irritable. My poor family. Really, it's sad for them. I am overly-sensitive and don't have a lot of tolerance for anything that bugs me. Today on the way home I had a slight breakdown (slight meaning crying a bit but really feeling like bawling) because well-meaning people at church told me I look miserable, or told me I look like I'm done, or asked me if I was due any day now. I am done. I am miserable. But please don't tell me I look that way too. Just say I look cute. Just lie.
- I wouldn't feel as bad if my face wasn't huge. There is no hiding your face. It's just right there all the time. Plus, it's covered in brown splotches that people can only assume are huge freckles. They're not freckles.
- I know I'm complaining a lot about this, but just so you're not worried about her- I am rubbing my belly frequently and tell this baby that I love her and I'm happy she's coming. She doesn't take it personal. We're okay, me and her.
- Okay, I'm done complaining.
- Ellery has started a fun little habit of tattling on Brian for pretty much any interaction they have that she sees as negative. "Mo-om, dad says I have to clean up." "Mo-om, dad called me a monkey-face." He does a lot of negative stuff to her, judging by the amount of tattles I hear.
- Speaking of tattling, isn't that one of the most awkward issues to explain to a child? When they are the ones tattling on other kids you tell them not to. But then sometimes they should. . .but how to explain the difference? Then, if they are being tattled on by a friend you act like you needed to know and that it's okay that the friend tattled, and you discipline them accordingly. So basically, it's okay for others to tattle, but not you. That's the message I feel like I'm giving.
- The other night at dinner we were discussing what to name our baby. Someone brought up a silly name and then that started a whole slew of silly names. Ellery's were my favorite: Milk-Mouth, Evelyn Poop, and Ugly Muffin.
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Wednesday, July 28, 2010
about ellery
She does not care much for sports
She will turn on whatever parent is telling her something she doesn't want to hear.
She can sleep with anything- little figures, animals, babies, even...
She likes her hair down and flowy
She wants barbie's for her birthday...already
After she goes potty she often says, "Good job little bummy!"
She is experimenting with the word "stupid" Especially directed at bugs, "Stupid bug."
She doesn't really like pasta.
She loves fruit and veggies. Carrots are her favorite.
She lives in dress ups
Her new thing when I ask her to do something, like brush her hair, go potty, etc... is to say, "No, McKay first."
The best leverage we have with her is her princesses and her nightgown. Still.
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Wednesday, July 28, 2010
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it's back
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Tuesday, July 27, 2010
when aunt krista came to stay. . .
We picked fresh raspberries,
We had to go to VooDoo.
It was wonderful to have her all to ourselves.
To show her our world.
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Tuesday, July 27, 2010
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Tuesday, July 20, 2010
buzz man
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